Elizabeth K remembers Anna Malle

January 31, 2006
Dear Hank,
I don't know if you'll get this e-mail, but I wanted to let you know I'm really, really feeling for you at this time. I'm so sorry that your beautiful, incredible, wonderful wife is gone. I met you both in Austintown, Ohio, in 2000. She was the feature entertainer at a club called Babylon, and I was 18 and a stripper there. After work one night, I was asked to do a bachelor party, and financially I couldn't refuse, despite the risks of secretly meeting a group of men -- complete strangers -- for an adult oriented performance. I didn't have ANYONE (friends, family, co-workers, etc.) that I could tell about this gig. I was thinking about whether or not to do it in the dressing room; I asked Anna if I could talk with her in private. She let me in her dressing room, and I asked her opinion on this offer. She told me, she would do it; she explained she was wiser and much more careful/street smart as a grown woman, but she gave me her cell phone number to call when I got to the house and when I left safely. The gig went fine; afterwards, I called her and thanked her profusely again for her safety calling card. I remember seeing you at the club as her bodyguard, but I didn't realize that not only were you her husband, but a porn star as well.
The week before she performed at the club, I remember her ads at the bar and on the walls-- "Anna Malle," I thought, "what a strange name!" Well, I remember somethings from her visit. I remember how FUCKING FUN and exuberant she was, she was an INCREDIBLE live performer/entertainer. She was ALWAYS in Jane Fonda workout/pilates video shape, even in her older movies I had seen over the years. I remember she looked a litttle shorter than 5'7, but had a build like me, and I related to her so much because she was half of an exotic, foreign culture (Native American) and half white mix, like me (I'm half Thai and half German, English, and Irish). She was beautiful.
A couple of my friends came to see her during her stay; they were an older couple, 34 and 35, about her age at the time; they were married, his wife was preganant, and they were the first couple I had had sex with. His wife was the first woman I was ever with. Anna was on stage, leaping around like a sex panther (HA! That cologne from 'Anchorman'); she got offstage, ran over to my pregnant friend, straddled her, and started gyrating on her. My friend was ecstatic!! She felt so frumpy being pregnant, and Anna made her feel like a sexy woman.
Anna just kicked ass. She rocked my world, and always will, even though I only met her once in my life. I had sent her e-mails over the years, and even though she only responded briefly to a couple, I totally understand that she had a wonderful, fulfilling life with people she loved to fill her time. I was and am so happy for her and PROUD of her for her work. In an era of porn that centers on barely legal teenage girls who feel like they have to be easy, slutty, promiscuous, or cock-pleasers when they should be focusing on more important things in life, Anna was a WOMAN with EXPERIENCE and the most original freedom and attitude; she entertained and wowwed thousands of men and women, doing a great justice to the very young girls of the world who might otherwise be caught up in the attentions of men that are better focused on a WOMAN who loves physical existence and lives it to the fullest instead of high school girls who should find their own ways in life and experiences with sex, instead of being so unjustly targeted as sex objects by commercial pornography. I'm not dissing the industry, I just don't like that all this 'barely legal' shit makes so many men lust after girls who are too young in life to be overwhelmed by sexual things before they find their niche in the world.

Before I met your wife, I had never watched porn nor had any porn at home. I thought she was so awesome as a person I had met, I had to check out her work. The first movie of hers I bought/saw/still have is Sex Academy 5 with Ona Zee. It's still one of my favorites. She was a goddess in her scene in Fantasy Chamber. The opening scenario in "Short Shorts" was HILARIOUS!!! The one with Mr. Marcus, when his car breaks down? I have purchased so many of her magazines; I LOVED her 2003 "Leg Show" issue, among so many others. I have wanted to see "Luv Boat" for 5 years! I wish I could see ALL of her movie scenes now, and I hope I can see so many of her photos.

Anna was a legend in the adult industry, always will be, and I think her greatest achievemants in that arena are that she aided so many men and couples to have pleasure without guilt, relationships with learning and communication, teaching married people to have better sex lives and be closer through sex. She was a goddess to thousands of men, their beautiful erotic pinup girl. She was mine, too, my favorite porn star! She also inadvertantly became a free speech model; there was never anything wrong with what she did in pornography, and the fact that she had a such a long, illustrious career with so much gusto and true relish is like a big "FUCK YOU" to anyone so conservative to say or believe that porn is bad, evil, wrong, etc. Goodness bless you and your wife. I asked her via e-mail a couple times if she would ever do a calendar, or hook up with some artsy mainstream photographer and pose for some art nudes, etc. The way I saw her, EVERY photo of her was an art nude to me. The greatest thing I have learne from Anna, especially now that she is gone, is to be honest with yourself and your feelings in a relationship and to be fully communicative with your partner. Hank, you AND your incredible wife taught me this. It's something I've struggled majorly with, being in relationships and wanting freedom. If I had secrets, I kept them because I didn't want to hurt my partners with jealousy. I love men and women, too. I love all people, and when it's so easy to see the good in people, how can someone be sexually monogamous? Shouldn't couples want the best for each other, want each other to be happy, and want each other to be completely FREE as human beings? Your wife was a free human being in the greatest sense. God bless you for being her rock, her partner, her freedom, and her home. I marvelled at you both for being so free and open with each other, and for having a LASTING healthy marriage (overall, nothing's perfect, I'm not assuming you guys never had any problems). You're both and example to me and to anyone in the world who has the insight to take heed. Please, if you get this letter and you ever want to write back, I would be as honored to hear from you as I was/would be from Anna. I know I'm a stranger, but if you need ANYTHING or help I could provide, please let me know.

Sincere regards and love,
Elizabeth K.